As my last entry was about Paris, a very lovely town, again I will do this one about it. To make it short: I went there once more. Well, nearly 3 years later many things have changed. I might have changed, but definately not into the person I wanted. My trip to Paris wasn't just about going there to see the town again, it was additionally a visit of relatives in Brittany. Well, maybe it was the last time I saw one of them, becaue between such visits there are most of the time about 10 years. Back to Paris: Something was missing, something quite essential. I'm talking about a human relationship and just the fact that I call it like that shows how little my understanding of it is and that I'm not capable to have one. On the other hand there is a certain desire for it and at the same time I act like a wall of fixed bricks when it comes to the slightest human interaction. To rule my mistakes out I have to understand my past, but unfortunately I changed in a way, that I can't anymore. In France I came up with two ways to cope with that issue: One is the oldest method of mankind - forgetting and the other one is simply confrontation. I can still see me advising the second one several years ago a bunch of times to others, but somehow I can not give that advise myself. Here I will shut my eyes infront of that issue, because by that entry I succeded in putting it away for a certain time.

But something about art now: I cleaned up my account here a bit. Of course I took some pictures in France, but just one was worth uploading. I'm an apprentice for audio visual display for about one year now, learning a lot about composition techniques and effects and well there will be more in the future, maybe not permanently, but step by step.